Nine weeks and Counting !!

Wow! It is just amazing how quickly the time is flying. I still think back to November when we learned about this pregnancy, and am amazed that I am really pregnant. The whole first trimester seemed like it passed in a daze. But now the strong, definite kicks of the baby make it more real every day. The movements have become more pronounced, and there is nothing like watching my stomach move!

And there is no doubt from people anymore-they look at me and know I am pregnant! It's funny how people feel more open to talk to you, or give you a knowing smile. Maybe it's my imagination. Maybe they're looking at me because I have a permanent flush to my cheeks and walk like a duck. I don't know for sure.

I want to tell the doctor that we should do the test at 11:00 at night, because that's when all the baby action kicks into high gear. I swear that she is going to be born with an addiction to" So you think you can dance ". she jumps and kicks like crazy every time we watch that show. she either loves it or hates it!
It has been awhile since we had any 4D ultrasounds done, and I am itching to see how my baby has grown and changed. My doctor said we'd probably have one or two more. I wonder every day what she looks like, and I'm really getting the strong urge to see her and hold her ! We can't wait!

Week 29

Really starting to feel the strain this week and looking forward to slowing down next week. I’ve been suffering from quite a bit of heartburn and my hips and legs are starting to ache when I walk. My sleep pattern has been quite disrupted - my baby seems to like waking up at 4am and giving me a good kick or three! Going baby Souvernir Gift shopping this weekend and really looking forward to it.

First week in the final Trimester

I officially entered the third trimester, when my baby's main job will be to bulk up as she already started.

At our last visit to the midwife , you weighed about 1.275g and measured 37-39 cm . I can tell you are getting a big head as I keep feeling it on my left side stealing the comfortableness away , but it is okay as long as you like being there .

Belly - Week 26

Not all sunshine and rainbows

One thing I haven’t really talked about during this pregnancy is my fears. I have them. A lot of them. As cool as it is to feel baby kicks , the fact is in 13 weeks or so, there’s going to be a real life infant here who will rely on us for survival.
I’m not afraid of keeping her alive, but I’m afraid I’m going to do it wrong. I watch my friends who are mothers and think, “How does she know to do that? How does she know that’s what her baby needs?”
I’m good with kids, love them, actually. But will I be able to tell the difference between a cry for food, a cry because she’s tired or a cry just because she wants to be held? What do I do when she gets a fever, won’t eat or doesn’t poop for days?
I know every new mother goes through this, but as the weeks tick on, I start to worry about this stuff more and more. Last night I had a dream that the first time I decided to try and breastfeed was 3 months into her life. she was huge and I just couldn’t get it to work. I kept jabbing her in the eye with my nipple and one point, her face puffed out like a marshmallow and milk started dribbling out the sides of her mouth and it was only when she spit up in my face that I realized I had essentially squeezed a water balloon worth of breast milk into her mouth all at once and she was choking on it.
I was so upset in the dream that I didn’t even think that I should stop and notice that hey, you’re looking at your baby. All I could see was this little face that I was drowning IN MY BREAST MILK and I felt horrible.
I’m hoping that some natural instincts will kick in and I’ll surprise myself and in the meantime, I’m hoping these dreams don’t get more persistent.
And I really hope I don’t drown my baby in my breast milk.