It is been a while i didn't log on to my blog, I almost forgot about it ! The motherhood is getting me so busy :(
I promised you an honest birth story. So from here on out there will be talks about some details. I really appreciated mothers who were honest with me regarding the ins and outs of birth, which is why I want to be honest here. Just giving you a heads up if you 're not interested in these kinds of things!
I was 10 days overdue when my doctor decided to schedule a cesarean section because the head would not engage and the baby looked rather large according to an ultrasound. I was shocked when the word cesarean was brought up. I expected to go through labor like everyone else. I didn't even think of what i'd do if I had a C- section because I was so sure everything was going to go naturally.
So 2 days later, and now 12 days overdue, I walked into Al Emadi's hospital, scheduled for a C-section ( it was the first day of the Holy month Ramadan ) . I was so nervous and excited that i even accidentally dropped my urine sample in the toilet .
I am not scared of needles, so preparing for surgery was easy for me. When i finally had enough fluids in me , the entire C-section crew was present and everything was prepared , I got to head to the operating room wheeled on bed.
I sat on the operating table and one of the doctos held my hands and talked to me hile i was given the anesthetic. All of a sudden, my blood pressure dropped and my heart rate increased and...
I woke up in recovery to find my mother over my head holding my hand and the tears in her eyes.. Just cant forget this moment, the expression on her face made me see the endless love she has for me . I am so grateful to have my mom sharing me this unforgettable experience and supporting me in all ways.
Then, my husband appeared with his phone in his hand trying to show me some pictures taken for our beloved daughter in her first life minutes. I pretended to see them and smiled but in fact i saw nothing, I could barely open my eyes, even my vision was still not so clear.
They took me up to my private room where Leana was laying inside a small transparent box wrapped in a towel . The nurse , who accompanied me the whole time, carried her and placed her on my chest , I stared crying ( in a happy way !)
In that moment, I became a mother, and the emotional heaviness of that hit me like a ton of bricks. I looked at my husband , and now a father (who in fact was busy in taking pictures) and at my mother, now a grandmother for the second time. We all cried tears of joy together...
There is more to tell but I'll end with this : for me , the cliche was true. I felt instantly in love at 2:30 pm on August 11th, 2010.
